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She closed her eyes, trying to calm her mind. "He may," she heard Hidey whisper, "make his own
decision. It's entirely possible, he has before. I can't tell you what to do, or Jim either."
Kira sighed. Things could never be settled, never resolved, it seemed.Where are the victories , she
wondered,where are the moments that make it all worthwhile? She drifted, her mind was floating,
not quite conscious yet unable to rest. She lay suspended in that state, dimly aware of Hidey at her side.
Kira began to catch up on her work, avoiding the house for the next two days. Occasionally she would
call, prompted by guilt, but Jim was never home, or refusing to answer. She left messages,call the office,
call Hidey' s apartment .
Jim did not call.
She had not devoted much time to Hidey's proposed project, and quickly remedied that situation. There
was little doubt in her mind that the others would go along with it, in spite of their objections to certain
details. She had sensed the atmosphere in the department, had overheard snatches of conversations in
the halls, the lounge, and the laboratories. Hidey, in the minds of the others, was in a sense the
department. People such as Ike Jefferson and Cesar Gomez had come to work here because of Hidey.
They would allow Kurt to voice objections, perhaps agreeing with some of them, but in the end they
would go along with Hidey. The meeting would become a formality.
Kira shuffled the pages on her desk and considered the project. They would begin tests with animals, of
course; if everything proceeded smoothly, they would then work with a human subject. She began to
wonder if she would falter at that point. She would not be able to regard the cloned fetus with quite the
same attitude as the others; she might see herself in the ectogenetic chamber, being readied for injection
into Paul. It could have happened that way, given different circumstances; she and her brothers might
never have existed except as serum in Paul's veins.
She shook her head. She was behaving like Jim, being fanciful. It was not the same thing at all.It's not
the same at all . And people now alive might never have existed if their parents had not made love at a
particular time. She could not involve herself in suchex post facto considerations.
She would have to go to the meeting in a few minutes. She doubted she would have much to say. She
would wait for the others to speak before offering anything. Hidey had not spoken with her about the
project; at first she had not wondered at that. But now she found herself worrying about it. Did Hidey
have his own doubts? Or was he so obsessed that he was afraid to speak to her about it, afraid she
would see that and join with Kurt against him? If that happened, Jonis would go along with her and
probably Bert Ramsey as well.But Hidey isn't like that . She would wait.
"Kira?"
Surprised, she looked up. Jim was standing in the doorway. She motioned to him and he entered, seating
himself on the edge of her desk.
"What is it, Jim?" The approaching meeting prodded at the edge of her mind.Damn it, I don't care, I
can at least give Jim some of my time .
"Ellie went back to New York, I took her to the train this morning."
"You don't seem too upset."
"Why should I be? She'll be happier doing that anyway. Ellie had to work hard all her life, that was one
of the problems. She decided she didn't want to give up her job after all, and she was starting to resent
me and my book. Maybe she was right about some things, I don't know. She wasn't mad when she left,
she told me to keep in touch."
"What are you going to do now?" Jim had obviously decided something, she could tell that. He seemed
calmer, more in control of himself.
"I'll be leaving." He smiled slightly, then shrugged. "Not right away. I'll finish the book, or at least figure
out where it's going, then leave. I'll be gone by the end of the month. I'll look for a quiet place where I
can work for a while."
How long that feeling would last, she did not know. But she could at least encourage him until he was
gone, and hope that he would persist.
"Carole said she'd come with me. I didn't expect her to, but she will."
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